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letter

I had the chance to drown in your knowledge

I pulled away for reasons we will both never hear

I feel your smile as if its stained upon me.

My letter to you

you are not alone

I keep all the the voices in my head

we talk, I scream and they listen…reluctantly

a bit like you and me.

 

I’m still here to keep

I won’t be leaving anytime soon

but I can’t be yours as much as you were never mine.

I never cried as hard as you would have wanted, in fact i couldn’t cry at all

I just stared intensely at this page for months until I found a weapon.

 

My heart never shattered into pieces

I was never fragile enough for that, even if I wanted to be

I still beckon to be hurt by you

It would be easier to let go of our nothing we shared.

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Asking for honesty

When I can keep crying and shove a pistol through my heart

My words become like medicine

Hard to swallow

Never spoke any lies

But still they weave round my words like spies

Fake smiles

Judging eyes

Im in the corner now

Shrivelling friendships

Searching for fucking honesty


1/2

If I can walk, I’m only half breathing

If I can shout, I’m only half crying

If I can, then I’m only half dying

he who does not know how to feel whole

can only feel in halves

measure feelings in halves

never feel whole heartedly, truly

he who feels in halves is always half smiling and half wondering…

that’s how it should be


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Shift

Build

love like breed

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Tide

Shove

creases smile along the lines

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Cry

Scream

shove the bottle down the gullet

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Spy

Fingers

sliding down your spine


i love

Lupe Vélez

When i create and cry

When i write and wallow

when i handwrite and hate

i recite and recall

verse and virile

and speak

entice

consciousness


she says

 

Lenny Kravitz- The Difference Is Why

She says she wants to be a lover but she has no fear

she says she wants to be an inspiration but knows nowhere

she says she wants to love but can’t breathe anymore

she says she hates the way she smiles because her eyes crinkle

she says she can’t have what she wants because she doesn’t deserve

she says that her hopes and dreams are never at ease

she says she wants to believe and respire but she can’t

she doesn’t love herself enough

she doesn’t give herself enough

she doesn’t feed her soul

it cries like a banshee

tearing her monotonous face

hoping and dreaming and pleading everyday

but she gets none of it

she says where am I going wrong?