I had the chance to drown in your knowledge
I pulled away for reasons we will both never hear
I feel your smile as if its stained upon me.
My letter to you
you are not alone
I keep all the the voices in my head
we talk, I scream and they listen…reluctantly
a bit like you and me.
I’m still here to keep
I won’t be leaving anytime soon
but I can’t be yours as much as you were never mine.
I never cried as hard as you would have wanted, in fact i couldn’t cry at all
I just stared intensely at this page for months until I found a weapon.
My heart never shattered into pieces
I was never fragile enough for that, even if I wanted to be
I still beckon to be hurt by you
It would be easier to let go of our nothing we shared.